Why is everything my fault. Why do I always end up apologizing, when im the one who got hurt. Why do they never say sorry. Why don't you ever change. I don't feel like a boyfriend to you, I just feel like a burden. I am a burden everywhere. I feel so disgusting I wanna sl1t my wrists until im not. I want to be bleeding red until im just a lump in the corner. Your 'jokes' arent jokes when I get hurt. Your jokes hurt, and I have to apologize for me getting hurt. I have to act so you don't shut down on me and ignore me. Im sorry. I'm sorry im a fucking burden to you. You don't love me. You fucking dont. You cant love me.