September was good, but it's been a downward spiral ever since. Nothing particularly terrible happened to me this month, I am just deeply unsatisfied with my life. It's kind of a miserable existence at the moment. I've been a loner my whole life and I can't seem to connect to other people, which is depressing as hell. I have no one to hang out with on the weekends which sucks. I feel invisible. No one at my college even knows my name, which is understandable since I keep to myself. I'd call it social anxiety, but that doesn't fully explain the extent of it. Talking to people is like pulling teeth, even if I desire friendship. I am so deeply uncomfortable in social interactions I wonder if it's even worth it. I hate being alone but I hate talking to people as well. I don't know what to do. I'm scared I will be this unhappy forever.