I know I messed up and I’m way out of your league in terms of career and you really do deserve someone better. That’s what I was trying to convey since the beginning but I think there was some misunderstanding. I just don’t want you to keep a tab on me though so we could walk on separate paths peacefully. I shouldn’t have this much ego honestly and this is why I never tried to put in any effort because I know I would feel bad about it. My lack of effort was not because I hated you but I just felt inferior about myself. That’s it