every day is just the fucking same. I can't anymore. Finals are starting soon and I don't feel like doing it anymore. I don't feel like living anymore. What I've realised now is that nobody REALLY cares. your so-called friends never come to check up on you, you've distanced yourself, your whole personality is suddenly different. That's what they see, but they don't ask what they did to me to make me cry myself to sleep every night because I feel worthless. People are so rude. Everyone is awful these days. I dont even think it'd make a difference if I was gone. I've been thinking about jumping for a year now, and I think I'm going to do it. Even tho it scares me, it's also exciting.... in a way... yk? feeling the rush of the wind brushing against your ears as you keep falling and falling and falling, until it's all quiet. to whoever reads this...... i dont know what to say.