Pt2 yea so during that time my self esteem and just everything kinda plummeted cause I really connected with her, and during that time I started to get thoughts and urges to hurt myself. Over time her su1c1dal thoughts become a bit weaker and she mentions while hanging out with me that a few months ago when she was struggling she was planning on breaking up with me and laughs a lil. Idk this didn’t do any good for my overthinking. Then there were a few more incidents to do with her MH . Eventually it didn’t really feel like love anymore, just her wanting to die and me trying to prevent that, but I did still love her. So I broke up with her. Then my MH plummeted again and I felt rlly bad for her and those thoughts came back. Ive also kinda been semi starving myself but at least I’m skinnier so yay. Uhh idk what the point of this was so bye =🌽