Hey all, I’ve tried to keep some stuff buried for a while cause I don’t want people to know ig and I still am quite affected by it but ig i need to get it out (under 17 btw). I started my first relationship with a rlly nice person middle ish of last year, and tbh it was awkward but nice. However about 7 months into this relationship I just felt like something was off and she seemed kinda distant, only for me to find out she was su1c1d4l and SH-ing. I really didn’t know how to help her but I listened to her and reminded her I was here. It got to the point where I got really scared and struggled to fall asleep cause i was worried she was going to comm1t, (also because a similar situation had happened with my friend and she almost KHS and I begged and pleaded for her to stay and she ignored me completely .) i tell my gf that if I can help I will and I really wanted her to stay etc etc. during that time I felt so useless and pathetic because she loved me but even that WASNT enough pt1