I feel like my life is slipping through my fingers, and that I'm not where I'm supposed to be. I feel like I missed so many opportunities because my mental health would consume me. I'm only 22, I know I have so much more ahead of me, I know I can try again. But I feel so behind compared to my peers. I've been unemployed for months. My roommate pays for the rent in full. My boyfriend is finishing his degree. And I sit here with nothing to give or even offer. I flunked out of my dream school years ago. My savings struggle to gain anything. I want so badly to turn back time, to try again, try better, knowing what happens if I don't. I'm so scared I've done nothing with my life and that it will continue to be that way. I feel so set apart from everyone around me. Sure, the autism plays a good part in that, but if you take that out of the equation... Then I'm still the odd one out. I hate being stuck with my whole body but I fear moving too, because if I move then I could end up worse.