I'm scared that I'm so drawn to her. I'm not supposed to be so drawn to someone I see in a purely platonic way. It isnt platonic love, it isnt a crush. idk what it is, I just wanna be close to her. everything about her is endearing to me, but the thought of kissing her makes me feel indescribably grossed out. Never felt so strongly about a friend without wanting to fuck them. It's kinda freaking me out.