i cant do this shit anymore i cant i just cant the expectations theyre too much i cant keep up this shell this mask they think im fine they expect perfection and nothing less they go on about how great i am but they dont see they dont see theyll never see and even if they do they wont care no one does i have one thing left to live for, my teammates, and i dont even know what im doing anymore in anything in life is life worth living anymore they just dont care i wish someone would care this aint making no fucking sense but im so done i just need someone someone to hold me idgaf if ts sounds cheesy i just need someone and i feel bad cuz maybe i do have someone but its not enough i dont see her anymore shes on a different team i just want to run to run to run far far far away to quit maybe no one would care no one would miss me no one would even fucking notice everytime something small happens it feels like i crack a bit more and just...im done im so so fucking done.