First my mom couldn’t afford to live in the apartment we used to stay in. The only place where I actually was able to at least for a second attempt to decorate my room how I’ve wanted. After that we were forced to move in with my grandparents which I know I’m lucky to be able to do but they are horrible and make living day to day a nightmare. I wanted to take a gap year after high school during this time but it turned into years because I was so stressed out I didn’t wanna do anything anymore. And when I finally start to try my mom ends up in the hospital. And that costs money. She might be on dialysis forever. That costs money. Then she gets a random tooth problem and has to have it pulled. More money. And now I’m having trouble with my own teeth. more money. And I want to go to school still but I’m worried about the cost and nobody in my family wants to teach me how to drive but cars and gas cost money so what’s the point. I honestly just wish I was dead. There’s nothing I want more.