Honestly, life was fine for a little while until, like a month ago. For a year I've been struggling with my mental health and so after my mother found out about me doing SH, I forced myself to stay clean for a pretty good 4 months until now. Every day I think and think about it. I've losts friends who left because of my mental health. I've lost so many relationships; my boyfriend blocked me yesterday after our 9-month relationship, where he just randomly stopped texting me back. I trust people too easily. Parents act like I'm an outcast in my own home; my father just treats me nice then goes on full-on pissed off at me for no reason. I'm slowly failing in my classes, and my grades are dropping down every single day I just don't know what to do anymore. I feel like passing out every single time; I always become so dry, and I wish someone saw my worth in me and supported me through my downs. Not like my ex-friends did but as you did I think I deserve sunshine. You all deserve sunshine.