I genuinely hate a lot about ourselves. We are a minor and a P-DID suspected system, everyday is like a new struggle waiting to happen, our mom hates our guts and makes it clear, favors out younger brother, our grandmother acts like we are a freak for dying our hair, our brother dosen't understand the word no and personal boundaries (hes in middle school btw) We have so many people we consider friends, but they ignore us daily, when we told them about our system and how we had been masking for years around them, they just ignored it and treated my headmates either like their source, like me, or like they were lesser than them because they aren't me. We still love our ex, yes, he was an amazing person, but we know they'd never date us again, we were best friends and still are. We don't want to lose what we have with them. Im genuinely so tired of life, I hate ourselves so much to the point I dream of dying....