I have one of the most toxic environments I think I've ever had surrounding me. Yet I get told you need to be happy and enjoy your life. That's a valid point but take away all the bull crap then I might be able to. My fam don't get what it's like to be me. Ok. They think I'm a fool sometimes. If people wouldn't start their shit and treat me like garbage, cuss at me for no reason, wanna use me then once that use ends want to treat me like dog shit and if I didn't have to deal with neighbors shitty obnoxious behavior and I didn't have to deal with a raging drunk etc. Then I might be able to have some happiness. I never asked for this crap. Some people need to take thought of the phrase "always be kind because everyone is fighting a battle you know nothing about". It's not like that in my surroundings family life. If I could up and leave I gladly would. It's not something achievable overnight. Especially in this economy. I feel telling my neighbors a lot of bad words. I hate this feeling