I want to die. I know it’s selfish and that there are many people worse off than me. I know my family would be sad, but lately all my thoughts are consumed by wanting to die. I have no job, and am solely relying on my mom, and especially my brother. I have no right to be as sad as I am, my brother who has all the responsibility should. I feel so helpless. Even if I were to get through an interview with my horrible anxiety, I wouldn’t even be able to get to a job because 2/3 of our vehicles are busted down. My brother is using my car to get to work. I don’t know what to do. It doesn’t help that I can’t even distract myself from all of this. I feel guilty when I try and I am burnt out on all of my hobbies. I just don’t want to live anymore, yet I’m too cowardly to actually do anything about it.