I hate myself so much and think I am a failure.i just want to die but I am scared of death and don't want for my parents to be sad.i want to vent to someone,ask for help but I don't want to be a burden.i don't know who I am,I just know that I am disgusting.i don't even have basic hygiene.everything is hard to do for my brain.i want run away but I don't want to make my parents sad.i am sorry for not being enough