Its my first time here,never vented online before,but lets not waste time Im tired,ive been in and out of mental hospitals,I cry all of the time and get called a baby,I just turned between 3-37 (idk if I can share my age here) and I cant figure things out,im scared for my future and I dont think i will be able to do anything with my life,I really need help but I just cant seem to get it,It feels like help Is on Mars and going to space is expensive,so my mental health costs to much for others to help me,That is what I am told which is WILD to me I want to scream so loud,I want to cry,ANYTHING to stop my endless pain and suffering,YES i know we have bigger problems in the world,but not one person will turn to notice. I want to be launched into space and freeze to death sometimes,or just get kiddnapped and killed. I dont want to burden anyone with my issues And speaking for some people,OUR MENTAL HEALTH ISNT SMALL Ive learned this in the hospitals,thank you for taking your time to read.