My heart doesn't hurt anymore, but it feels like there's a big hole in it that air is just passing through it. The sad part is- I started praying again, but my prayers consists of begging to not let my heart hurt, and that to not let me see him again in this life. It's the kind of desperate begging that I never want anyone to experience. It feels like it should hurt somewhere, cause I cry from time to time. But nothing. Maybe my body is protecting me from the pain of being betrayed by someone you deeply loved. there are times that I wish it didn't happen, or WE didn't happen.
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