I'm soo needy for attention it's not even funny. I shape my personality according to the person I'm talking to, and try my best to keep up a cheery facade so I can fit into the "oh-so-cute-girl" stereotype. (I'm not even a girl. I'm a transman, but no one ever respected my gender identity so I kinda gave up on trying) I've done multiple changes to my appearance to fit into society as a "normal person" and fish for compliments from other people because what's the fun in being myself if people won't compliment me? If they won't call me pretty? If they won't love me? I feel like I'm tricking people into believing I'm a good person when I'm actually just a selfish b1tch who can't even be himself in public because he's a fucking jerk on the inside I hate the version of me that pretends to be an angel on earth, but I hate the real me as well. They're both bad in different ways. In the end I just want to be loved for who I am but I don't love myself in the first place. Yeah.