u guys every felt replaceable? that no matter how much you tried to get along with people or tried your best for someone to choose, it just doesn't happen? I was always there for them. when they needed someone, I went and made sure that they knew that they weren't alone. but why is it so different when it's my turn? it's either that they don't want anything to do with me or that they're hanging out with me out of pity. Out of pity since they only seem to hangout with me if I'm sad and they feel bad about it. but if I'm not, then it just brings me back to being ignored and left out. I thought that maybe because I wasn't fun enough for them, so I tried to be as outgoing as them. at the end of the day, I'd still feel that way. I was chasing something that would finally make me feel irreplaceable, but all the chasing just made me realized how lonely I was as a person. no matter what I do, I wouldn't be someone's first choice.