i cant feel anything anymore and it makes me sick to my stomach. i dont wanna eat. i dont wanna do anything fun. all i want to do is sleep. i hate everything around me; my friends, my family, my belongings, and the world around me. evilness is in everything and it makes me want to claw at my skin until i bleed. i have nothing to look forward for. i have no future, no job, no one that truly understands me. i am not religious; therefore, i dont even have something to look forward to after wasting myself away every single fucking grueling, draining, and miserable second on this earth. ive tried going to parties, dates, talking to more people, trying to make friends, but nothing works. everyone is either too annoying, or too nice. maybe im just picky, which is whatever, but by god, the world hates me. i like my cat though. take care of your pets. they love you too