Im tired of being an emotional burden to everyone around me. To my gf especially. Im insecure, physically, financially, mentally. I fawn in front of my family. I have no voice when I need it. And at the end of the day, who bears the brunt of my insecurities? My gf. She has to hear me talk about it over and over and over. She has to comfort me, see me cry. I've done it after sex or during, I've done it over the phone. I've done it in person. How much more can I humiliate myself in front of her? Ik she's supposed to care but I know its exhausting. Its like my sadness can be a bottomless pit sometimes. Im stuck. Im stuck and I dont want her to be stuck with me. I just want to make her happy. But Im always so fucking sad. I know she will tire of me. And im sick of feeling this way. It comes back every few months or after something with my mother happens. I turn into this nothing person who cant find joy in anything anymore. What is wrong with me?