I dont feel anything other than this sadness. This weird void. I was a smart kid, I loved earning and writing. I loved playing my favorite game and getting better. All the things I love know make me feel nothing. I care less about the people I love being dissipated in me which is what had kept me going after I couldn't feel passion for anything anymore. Living for other ppl. Ppl I love. But I realize more and more that they dont see me. They dont understand me. They dont know me, actually know me. Just some past version in their head. And I cant stand it. I have this anger and sadness, it feels like it takes over my whole body. I dont care. I dont care I cant even fucking get up and get on the game I can't find enjoyment out of anything. Out of reading out of accomplishment out of anything. I fucking hate myself