My life sucks, I'm having depressive episodes with frequency, my mind is sick, for every month of this year, someone left, I can't stop overthinking about the mistakes I did when I was a kid, i'm afraid it will ruin my life, I'm afraid I'll exposed, i'm afraid people will hate me even more, i'm afraid people might stop talking to me and see me even weirder when i needed help, i told atrocious lies in in change to receive attention, I can't forget about the nudes I sent when I was 13, my mom is aggressive and everytime she pisses me off I press my teeth hardly, press my skin with my nails, my teeth are rotting in real time, some of them are chipped, one is broken, I hate my face most of the time, I can't seem to manage my hair, I can't express myself when talking about how fucked I am, i wrote paragraphs, talked to people, friends, my school therapist, and nothing helps, I wanna be normal, beloved, I wanna belong