i realized the guy i met from online (local) didnt actually like me or see me as a real man and he just has a fetish for trans people. yet he made me so obsessed with him and wanting him so bad especially because im so lonely. im 26 and he's 5 and we have nothing in common and it just makes me feel disgusting that I still think of him and want him. We never had sex or kissed we just hugged and talked briefly I don't want to explain why. but we were planning to meet up again and have sex until I got really sick for a while and now I'm just scared and hating myself and idk how to tell him gently (without mentioning the chaser/fetish part)