i hate that my problems and feelings are that of a teenager and that there's only a few people my age or older than me on here and theyre just talking about work or marriage issues. im supposed to be an adult and get over my issues but i still act like im 17. i fear that ill never mentally age and grow up. maybe part of it is me just being sensitive because im autistic. but ive never felt like an adult. especially when you get abused by your parents all your life, and then hurt by the same person from age 12-18 and being groomed several times. and then being assaulted as an adult. it ripped away my ability to grow up normally and be a normal teen. let alone how its fucking up my ability to be an adult. i never got to be a teen. i went from liking my little pony and warrior cats to substance abuse and seeking attention from adult men between 11 and 12.... 26, lonely nonbinary