It feels increasingly incredibly difficult to be a college student and be social. I’m not sure what it is lately but I just don’t trust a single soul. I have no friends because I am so picky about who I trust and I can’t even talk to anyone anymore because it just feel pointless to even try. I hate small talk. I hate fakeness. And the world is just becoming more and more socially unbearable. You would not believe how common it is for people to just lack any sort of empathy whatsoever. It saddens me so much that I don’t even feel human anymore. How can people just not care about other people? How can they just not recognize other people as existing minds, existing thoughts and feelings? I can’t stand it anymore and so the search for finding another soul like mine that understands mine feels more and more hopeless. I just don’t want to feel alone anymore but it never goes away no matter what I do. Everything and everyone feels so shallow and dull. I need to go on a walk.