I am a DID system and I am sick and tired of living like this honestly i cant take it anymore. we are physically disabled, and diagnosed with so many other mental issues that nobody takes us seriously. Recently, my headmates have been doing nothing but cutting up the body, and it's all my fault. I cut off someone who was bad for the system and exploited us sexually, and knew our system was in love with them. Its been a few days since it happened and ever since then we have been doing nothing but getting high and cutting ourselves up. I cant take it, this is all my fault. We are also getting groomed by a 19 year old and a 22 year old on discord and i cant leave. i cannot leave or they will leak things i cant say. im going to relapse again and i wont be able to see our therapist until november 18th.