I just wanna say that i m tired now. so much tired of everything... is it my fault that i was born as a daughter?why do they hate me so much .. i m watching all this for more than 15 years.... everybody say that its normal, parents love their children ,they care for us thats y they do this...but if its the care ,the love all parents do it like this,then i dont want any love of such type...i would be happy alone...all alone...i can't even daai while i want it so badly ..but i m not allowed...this religion ughhhhhhhh.... i m literally ruined..all my dreams, all the abilities i had... when my teachers used to say that i'll go so far .maybe i was capable....but everything's ruined now..... i can't even process stuff , i don't even know how to interact with people ..they think i am weird if i ever try to say smth online.... they allowed me to use this broken laptop so that i can study ,study haha.... they didn't even allow me to use the good stuff as my siblings do..am i that bad?.........