I have trouble talking about my feelings, let alone writing about them. I know someone seeing this is rare, or at least I'm guessing because of how many people there are on this app. I hate talking about my feeling, I get this disgusting feeling deep in my throat that makes me want to rip it out, so I stay quiet. I don't talk just so I can avoid that feeling. But here I am. I've always struggled with my mental health, it became impossible for me to ignore during 4th grade, I hate this so much. I know something is wrong with me, I want help, but i'm scared. I'm scared it'll be too late and nothing will fix me. I'm scared no one will listen like last time. I'm scared they'll just shoo me away or dust it under the rug. I can't even talk with my parents without getting mad for some reason, I've never had a therapist before. I don't know if I can even trust one. I'm scared because what if I go through all of this just for it to come back. So I sit, and cry, and cry.