not really a rant but more of a confession. I still have feelings for my ex. im pretty sure he knows it too, but he's still texting me. we texted until midnight last night and we talked about us. we both wish it went differently. I miss him so much but im pretty sure he doesn't intend on getting back together with me. I just really think it would work out this time, but I know I can't force him to think that too. he's really been struggling, and I want to help him, but I can't help him as a friend without being forced to repress the feelings I have for him. when we texted last night, it felt like he really cared about me, but i know that doesn't matter even if he does. its over and I need to let go, but I can't help but hold on to false hope. I can't fully be there for him as a friend, and I don't know if I can do this without my feelings for him becoming apparent. I just really don't know what to do idk