i hate that i can’t do anything right. i can’t commit to anything and day by day i’m losing mh fucking mind i can’t seem to articulate myself because i get too lazy mid way and the only time k get anything coherent out is when i’m complaining. i can feel myself getting dumber by the second j can’t do basic maths i can just about read and write in a failure after all these years in education and i have got no skills to show for it. it’s an embarrassment for my parents and myself i am 22 years old with nothing to show for it. i am a mockery of my peers and age mates i can’t do a single thing correctly or at least try to do it correctly because my stupid brain just gets distracted and gives up. i don’t understand why i’ve ended up in this pathetic cycle i can’t complete a single stash without feeling overwhelmed or like my insides want to gut themselves and throw it out. i am exhausted living in a body which is so against existing with efficiency. i don’t think i was always like this