Sometimes I feel like something is wrong with me. Being a young adult is so complicated but the most complicated thing to me is the fact everyone I talk to seems to be in a relationship or has people lined up to hook up. I'm not jealous of the hook ups I'm frustrated at the fact it is so easy for them to meet people and I still find myself being the 3rd in everything and never someones 1st option. I avoid talking to people due to fear of "what if they wake up tomorrow and decide I'm not worth it?" did I mention people never talk to me? Am I ugly? I know what a lot of people say, "Why worry if that just means that they aren't the one for you?" that exactly why I worry. What if I never find the one and I stay lonely forever? There is nothing wrong with being single but it just hurts seeing everyone else enjoy their relationships and enjoy their new found independence with someone who isn't just with them for the fling or for the heat of the moment. I just want to have someone of my own.