I plan on overdosing in a few weeks or months. I used to say that if I wanted to die I would take every precaution possible to make sure I really die. I realized I didn't want my last moments to be painful so I'll try this. Or at least I'll try and get close dying via overdose to see if it's painless. I'm tired of having to fight to just get out of bed. I'm tired of having to wait until things "get better" I've been like this for over half of my life. I'm sick of it.