I don't know anymore. I don't know what I should do. Should I kill myself? I don't know. I just keep thinking that I don't have the right to kill myself. I don't have bad parents, my friendships are also alright and I should probably be grateful for that. I see other people post their story and I realize that I don't have the right to think about death. I don't have any trauma or anything else, but I still think about suicide every day. I don't want to live anymore. I don't know why. I just don't want anymore. I'm just embarrassing, even writing this on a random website. I want to kill myself so bad, but I don't have the right to do this, so I don't know anymore what to do. I just don't want to live anymore. Mostly because I hate myself, but I made myself like this. I can't blame my mental health on any other person, because i made it myself. I'm the problem and I don't know what to do. I really want to kill myself, but I'm too scared to actually do it. I hope someone reads this <3