I hate the fact I was born a woman. I hate the fact I live in rural Alabama, surrounded by a bunch of transphobic bigots. Why do you give a shit about what I want to do with MY body? I hate the fact that I'll never be able to transition. I hate the fact that even if I do transition, it'll be at the risk of losing my entire family. I hate the fact I was born with XX chromosomes instead of XY chromosomes. I hate how irreversible it all is. I hate getting physically ill when I look in the mirror. I hate how much I'm sexualized. I hate how I can't even take a walk at night without looking over my shoulder. I hate how if I came and said this to my family, they would automatically assume I've been brainwashed by the far left, even though I've felt this way since I was six years old. I hate how my identity is seen as something "political" and "taboo", when all I'm trying to do is live and be happy.