Literally nobody in my fam gets me despite me VERBALLY TRYING TO SPELL IT OUT FOR THEM. How I feel why I feel the way I do. For real I felt like giving up today. They'd rather create drama merely over going shopping. Just over something as simple as that. I'm fully aware it's a Saturday and places are full and blah blah blah. Fam are so unstable and mentally ill I think. I speak of anxiety they blurt out that's what the med is for. They don't have a clue how draining and how it is to live with it daily. They wanna condemn everything I say. They say i should see a therapist or psychiatrist. Um look who's talking. No I plainly tell them I don't need that I'm just tired of the bullshit I keep going through like upstairs disrespectful karen neighbors loud ass thumps that really set me off this morning because they know better and don't have to do that. So from my fam it's deflect, accuse, gaslight, or ANYTHING BUT VALIDATE ME. They are so irritable and ill. I thought of suicide earlier.