I don't know what peace feels like anymore my mind is constantly running even when trying to sleep. I constantly feel anxious and like I can't please anyone. I hate the way my mind works. I hate the way my body looks. I feel like no one really likes me. I feel all of these feelings. I always feel like I'm over explaining myself or sharing too much. I can't get out of my own head. I've shared these thoughts and feeling with people close to me but no one understands. They say that I'm being dramatic. I'm just so tired. I'm not suicidal, let me clarify that. I just have this lingering thought of if I wasn't in the way- they'd probably be so much happier. I'm a Christian but my thoughts and feelings and desires have led me away. I constantly fixate on sex because it's the only time I feel free. My boyfriend says he loves me and he shows effort but my stakes are so high it never feels like enough. People always say you have to love yourself before you can love anyone else. I'm so lost.