Im either too loud or not enough. I have this manic episodes and I constantly feel like I’m a passenger. There’s this helplessness in me that I csnt get rid of. I’m fairly young and ever since I got into the honors class I feel like I never fit it with my grade Im learning 2 grades ahead of me. I feel like I belong no where. I bedrot. And not in the silly way in the way I cannot force myself,f to do anything.