Let it go. I wish I could. All the past hurts. Yeah I keep getting told "you need a counselor you need psychiatrist/therapist" etc etc etc. Yeah well so do those in my family who keep telling me that as well. I wouldn't if it wasn't for the bull that I do and have dealt with and been through. Yes I have trauma. Lots of it. They tell me you're crazy your crazy at times . Am I? No I just have a low tolerance for b s. But ok sure go ahead and label me. I'm more sane than my family are in their current state because I'm not the one who eats all their meds runs out suffers for it months at a time. That's the definition of insanity doing the same thing over and over expecting different results. But me I'm the crazy one? Ok sure. One family member defends them but invalidates me every time I voice how I feel. But I'm the one who is crazy? Ok sure. NOT. idk I think I meant to go another direction with this. But let's just say I'm not the only one with "imperfections" so to speak.