i have a new idea about my career choice every godamn day but i have been stuck on psychiatry for a couple months now up until the end of grade ten I've been preparing to be an electrician. one crisis later and i absolutely despise it. i was just doing research on this and long story short its too hard but that doesn't give it justice. i realized that ive been lied to my whole life, when people say "you can be anything you put your mind" to or "you are the only thing holding you" back they are lying. because schools don't care about character or why you want to be something, they care about grades that don't accurately portray your academic ability. i am so tired of people lying to me, my guidance counselor saying she'll get back to me, my coaches my friends! my hockey friends abandoned me because of the moms pulled some backwards old lady mean girl bullshit! im scared that im going to be left behind. left behind when all my friends graduate. they know what they want to be i dont