I don't even know what to say. I feel like sinking into the ground every day. I basically failed my year. (I feel like dying seeing this part written out.) It was all so sudden. I'm suicidal now, my mh is the worst it's ever been. I feel so inferior whenever people vent about relationships, friendships. I don't have either. I talk to myself so much I barely feel like a person. I feel disillusioned about whatever past self thought everything will be okay if I just tried my best. I can't for the life of me, figure out where I went so wrong to deserve this. To my old dreams and expectations, they stay as painful remembers. I wish so bad secretly I could have just one person who loved me. I feel behind and afraid to open up and sad and anxious and insecure and desperate. I feel so utterly worthless.