I’ve always been trying to start anew no matter what place in life I’ve been in. It started small from when I was a kid and I’d have multiple accounts for different games that I would switch to if I was bored of another or I’d even make up small lies about me to my friends. As years have gone by I still feel this urge to change myself and when I believe I’m finally at a place I’m okay with I get the instinct to change again. My appearance, my weight, my personality, my interests, I know things can shift but it’s so often I have this craving to be someone else or be seen as someone else that I lose sense of who I really am. What about me do I strongly hold as part of my identity-how do I describe what I look like to someone-whenever my friends or family criticize me on something I suddenly feel like the one image I could maintain is shattering and I have to change again. I wish I could find a version of myself to keep, I wish I knew who I was