I just don’t know how long i can do it for anymore. The weight of these feelings are weighing on me like a cinderblock. Im up at 2 am thinking about her again. Here’s the basics. This girl is so funny, so kind, so beautiful. I’ve known her for 4 years since freshman year. Im 18 now. Started off as friends dated for 2 months then went back to friends. i didnt do enough.. i was young and dumb and immature and didn’t do what i was supposed to do to keep the relationship going in the end and this will eat at me until the day i can call her my girlfriend again. Anyway.. we haven’t talked in a little over a year but i was up late and i was thinking about her so i reached out. She is still with her bf that she got after we fizzled out, and that sucked to hear but she was saying they had problems. I want the best for her but i don’t think that’s him. But we’ve been talking again for about 2 weeks now. we call almost every day. The spark is there i just miss her so much . Out of words. - 5