i love my family so mucb. i miss them sm i hate that i never talk to them. its so embarrassing to speak spanish to them like i speak it every day and im good at it but theyre sm better at it than me and its so scary to talk to them but i love them sm and i miss them and im literally crying bc im writing an essay on how living so far from my family has made me more grateful for them but its making me so sad its not fair that some people get to see their grandparents and aunts and uncles every day and i only see them a few times a year through facetime and im so jealous of everyone who is friends with their cousins bc all my cousins are friends with each other except for me like esp cus im one of the only girls (the only other one is my way younger sister) its js so frustrating i just love them sm i wish i could see them all and hug them all and talk to them bc i just love them sm i wish they knew how much i love them and how much i think about them