I thought things would be easier after graduation but that was just a lie. It’s hard to find a job and it’s even harder to find a masters you’re not wasting your money on. Everyone else I know is singing something with their life while I just rot in this constant cycle of uselessness. Some don’t even have a rejection email just straight silence. It’s killing me inside slowly and the only thing keeping me here is the thought of my mothers tears. It’s cruel to leave her when she’s struggling with so much death, debt and pain already while keeping such a kind smile. Despite not being the oldest Im somehow ahead of my sibling which only speaks of how they act. My father is arrogant and stubborn despite losing his job he does not seek to change himself and we are left to rot in this broken thing we are forced to call a family. I don’t think it will ever change but hope is the last thread I can cling to so that I don’t lose my sanity.