TW:ED/BED/emetophobia/ i stuff my face until it doesnt even taste good anymore. when i go to the kitchen and try to eat smthg i feel sick bc of how much i ate. idk how i let it get this bad. i just wanna go back to when i didnt know what a calorie meant. then again i was a fucking chud. if i continue these horrible habits i will be like that again. this might be tmi but bc ive been eating sm and spiralling out of contro i feel like my body wants to hurl everything back up. im eating a bunch of shit and my mouth is gagging and i dont have bullimia so its not on purpose, my body is genuinely js tweaking. i cant even hurl it up and i wish i could bc i feel sick sm phsyically and mentlly. in the morning my stomach hurts terribly. i think i messed myself up. huge tip, it isnt worth it. restriction will only lead to b;nges and you'll be even more fucked up then before