I'm losing my mind. I feel so inferior to everyone and I feel like I resulted to nothing. I work and study at the same time in order to lessen my family's burden and it's so fucking depressing. I'm tired everyday even on my day off, I've been this way for almost ten years and I'm still struggling. I can't die even if I want to because I have people who still cared for me. They're the only reason I'm alive. I don't care if I don't make it in the future, but if they want me to make it I will. I don't care if I get hit by a car, at least they'll get my insurance money and I won't have to pay the student loan debt. I'm working and working and it's never enough. No matter what I do I'm never enough. I want more, so much more but I could never have that. I watch as privileged people take their lives for granted saying they're poor when they live freely, I fucking hate it. I hate everything, I hate myself, I hate myself for not being better especially for my family.