Wanting and needing help because I'm scared to spiral into depression like I did before but it's genuinely hard trying to ask for help. I can't muster the courage to ask any of my family members or friends. If I try to vent and be open with my family I would be shamed on how I am "having it easy" unlike them and if I try opening up to my friends I feel like I might be dismissing her own issues and the others would redirect the conversation back to themselves and dismiss me entirely. I see some people online offering listening ears but it's hard due to privacy and security issues and the fact that I am way too embarrassed to open up to any strangers. I feel so drained and emotionally heavy all the time and it's so not fun. This forum is the only way I can express myself so I guess small comfort are still there after all. :^)