I am financially dependent on my parents. And because of this I live under my parents roof and I have to do lots of chores to compensate for it and it's genuinely hell. If I even missed a spot or feel like not do anything for the day, my mother would guilt trip by saying "oh I work so hard until I feel like I'm dying and you guys don't even do anything in this house and you don't take your future seriously like I do." It's genuinely so draining feeling guilty all the time and getting shouted at for every little things I didn't do. And yes I am actively searching for a job, I have gone around like crazy search for one only to be met with rejection. I am in a constant limbo of getting the hot and cold treatment. My only friend have concern for her own life too and I tried venting to her once only for her to redirect the topics back to herself or another matter. I genuinely don't know what to do in my life at this point