i hate myself, my body, my face, my habits. i hate that i cut myself and like it, i hate when i starve myself then eat to much. i hate who i am i hate that i dont have someone to hold me and tell me everythimg is gonna be ok. i hate looking at myself and feeling sick. i hate pretending that im fine becasue im the funny carefree person. i wish i could not cry and start shaking i wish it would all stop and end i cant think of killing myself tho, i want to look forward to my first kiss, my hoco and graduation amd so much other stuff, i wish someone would kove me